Day 2 Cycle 1 (400)

CURRENT THINSPIRATION 

*drool*

My desires in this conquest

*I want legs that do not touch when I walk

*I want a flat thin midsection

*I want tiny breasts

*I want long lean slender arms

*I want a thin slim face

*I want hip bones and collar bones that jutt out all the time

*I want NO back fat

*I want to be thin

Well goodmorning world. Or actually, goodmorning to myself, seeing as I am sure that I am the only one who is reading this lol. That is alright though, I need this place to help me, and help it does.

I have zero friends in this world, and zero family.

I moved far far away from where I came, to be alone, because my family could not respect accept my own personal wishes.

Now that I live far away, I will not be "hurting" them, they will not see me falling back into my own little happy world. I don't see how it hurts them anyways, for me to be happy. You think that it would make them happy. But oh well, its ok. :) I am on my way to being happy again. <3

My weight this morning was slightly less then yesterday, a small small victory. I will be posting my weight daily by showing a picture of my scale.

Here we are today.

4/9/2010 7:30 am

So yesterday was 185.4, and today is 184.2, which is a loss of

1.2 lbs

Which like I said, is a very small victory.

So I will be doing only water between meals, which will be...

a small bowl of cereal with soy milk, (200 calories) at 8:30 am

then, at 12:00 pm, I will have a bowl of veggie soup (110 calories)

Then I will bloat myself full of water until 4 or 5 pm, when I will have a HUGE lettuce salad with a table spoon of extemely low cal dressing (5 cals per tbsp), and a bowl of potato leek soup (90 calories)

Which equals a grand total of....

400 Calories! WHOOO!!

It actually works out to be a full three meals today, thats pretty neat. I don't know how I am going to eat as many as 800 calories in a day... I am to afraid to think about eating that much right now. But I don't have to think about that for a few more days, so it's ok.

Well I am going to go make my cereal now...

I am so lonely. :( I want a friend, that agrees with my thoughts and ideals.

Guess I will have to do some searching

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10:24 am

Blegh. I am bored. I just did about ten minutes of yoga. Ouch, I am severely non flexable these days, I really need to stretch, ALOT from now on before and after any workouts. Sometimes I feel like plain stretching is time wasted I could be working all of this fat off of my body, but I gotta do it or I will be in extreme pain during my workouts. I will figure out a balance to it all someday.

FITNESS LOG 4/9/2010

Yoga - 10 minutes

Aerobics - 30 minutes

Stretching - 10 minutes

TOTAL -50 minutes